Saturday, March 22, 2014
13
It Hurts 13 (#1), 5 x 2.5 x 2 inches, wood, needles, copper, 2014
Uncertain 13 (#2), 12 x 3.5 inches, fabric, copper, 2014
During the past 2 months I have been seeing a therapist for the first time in my life. I say this because I do not feel it is something to be ashamed of, but instead something to be proud of. It took me a long time to finally decide to do it because I believed I could change my dysfunctional behaviors on my own. And I thought it was embarrassing to ask for help from others. But I have learned that is is almost impossible for anyone to make such big changes without help.
In this short amount of time I have discovered that their are 5 major symptoms I have been battling with all my life that cause me to behave in ways I don't actually want to behave. I'm a control freak, a perfectionist, dependent/anti-dependent, overly vulnerable and have very low self-esteem.
As scary as it has been to face these issues, it has helped me to start seeing them in my actions and thoughts. I have been challenging myself in many ways but also keeping in mind not to be too hard on myself either. I am now aware of when I am acting these out (and why) and sometimes I can avoid them, stop them, or at least apologize to myself or others when I have acted them out.
I want to let go of even the little things that hold me back like numbers for instance. I'd never do anything 13 times and I most certainly would never create an even number of pieces because I'd heard when I was little that odd numbers of things are better. That may seem silly but it's the build up of these little things that I hold on to that become something much bigger to deal with. So I am making 8 pieces, each with 13 objects. As I begin to change the little things, I can start to change the bigger ones.
Friday, March 21, 2014
Chicken Card: Day 9
Dropped a furry chicken off at The Grind in Lincoln Square today.
Made a pizza with some of my spaghetti sauce I made from this past summer. Super delicious with spinach, sun dried tomato, onion and kalamata olive. Yum!
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Chicken Card: Day 7
Dropping chickens off all over Chicago! Yesterday I left some at Ground Control in Logan Square. When I was headed to the restroom the owner stopped me to ask, “Are you the one leaving the art?” I was so worried she was going to ask me to stop that I didn’t want to admit it…but I am not much of a liar so I replied, “yes…” and she responded with, “They are so cute! Thank you!”
That made my day…and the delicious vegan wasabi portobello burger!
Tuesday, March 18, 2014
Monday, March 17, 2014
Sunday, March 16, 2014
2nd Annual CSA Farmer Talent Show
I was in the farmer fashion show at the 2nd Annual CSA Farmer Talent Show last night showing off my carrot earrings and handmade carrot pin! I love being in the company of farmers and the people who appreciate them!
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